Goodbye.

Hello Readers,

A lot has happened since my last blog, and I mean a lot!

To start things off, I'm still going out with my amazing boyfriend and it going brilliantly! Love my life right now, and with a boyfriend like mine, I really can't complain!

Now here's the sad part that's happened since my last blog and it has to do with my best friend.
Today, at 11am, she got on a plane to Mozambique where she now lives.

It's hard, eventhough I knew about her leave for about two months I could never of believed that she would actually go.

I keep walking past her house and feel my eyes welling up thinking; 'She doesn't live there anymore. I'll never be able to run out of home when things get rough and crash around there until I'm calm. I'm never going to be able to knock on that door and see her face. Never going to be able to talk to her about everything that is going on face-to-face.'

It's stupid really because I am going to talk to her on Skype whenever I can and I will save up enough money to go out there and visit her! Probably going to take a while but I'm still going to do it!

I met up with her and a few other of my mates on Monday and we all went for a goodbye Costa, which was so much fun and really showed us all how much we were going to miss each other!

As we planned on going out the next day, I didn't give her the proper goodbye that I planned on. Just a awkward hug -awkward because I was eating a foot long subway.

We were all at Costa on Tuesday, waiting for her to walk through the doors but instead I got a call.

I must say that is one of the worst calls I've ever had in my life!

Rachel isn't big on showing her emotions, especially when she is sad and hurt, but when she told me that she wasn't allowed out her voice cracked. That was the most horrid sound I've ever heard and I couldn't help but let a few tears drop from my eyes.

I hated it! Hated people seeing me so distraught! Hated not being able to say goodbye to my best friend! And most of all, hated the fact that the last time I saw her, I didn't give her a massive warm hug because of my-stupid-self being too greedy and hungry to show her how much I'd miss her!

I really love that girl, and knowing that I'm not going to see her everyday is just horrid!

I really hate saying goodbye. I know a lot of people say that but it really makes me gagg thinking about it.

I should be off now, watching Children In Need!

Catch you later, looking for life's loopholes.